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Hihi. Sharlni HERE! 19 this year. Born: 14th August 1991. I'm now Studying in Republic Poly, Going on Year 3. =D No hobbies at the moment. Dislike Doing Stupid things people ask of me >=/. Oh and that's not my puppy, found over at cuteoverload.

wishlist
■ Knowing God. ^.^
■ Acoustic Guitar
■ Yellow Digital Camera
■ New Wardrobe
■ Acoustic Guitar
■ Surprise Birthday Party. Haha.
■ World peace
■School shoes
WORDS! =D

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Wednesday, June 24, 2009, 9:32 AM
Hello!

I just created a Twitter Account! HAHA! =D Like
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yesterday. FUN! ^.^

If only my Phone had Wi-fi. Lol. I will be totally
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addictted. HAHA!

You Guys should SOOOO Get an Account on
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Twitter, andStart Twitting! Haha. =D


Oh. And. I NEED Help with my NO Soda Diet! Lol.




Thursday, June 18, 2009, 5:49 PM
Updates!!!! =D

1st UT period is OVER!!! YEA!!!!! HAHA! =D


But I don't think I'll be able t make it through... =(





Therefore, I'VE GOT to Work REALLY! REALLY! Hard
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for my other UTs! NO CHOICE!








And updating on my 'progress'. LOL. There is Yet to
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be ANY PROGRESS. HAHA!


I have yet to start. Hehe....Lol. BUT!





I AM GOING TO START!
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Starting NEXT WEEK!





COMFIRM!!!! =D





Haha!





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Alena...Here's CREAM! CREAM! =D


^.^





Tuesday, June 16, 2009, 9:48 AM
Wish List!

I feel like getting a touch phone.
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Lol. But I'm not sure what kind.
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Hmmm? =/


I also feel like asking somebody to
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buy me a digital camera (YELLOW!)
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Haha. (MY BIRTHDAY'S COMING
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UP!) =D



And a NEW Wardrobe! Haha!
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=D


That's all for now. ^.^




Sunday, June 14, 2009, 10:24 AM
One more thing

OH! OH!

AND.....

ALOT OF CONFIDENCE! ALOTS OF IT!

HAHA!

MUST! =D




9:35 AM
Improvements

Hello! +)

I have decided to do some improvements of myself.

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First, I am going to become one of the Hardworking
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and SMART people in school and
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among my friends. (An expriment) Haha.

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Second, to become WAYYYYY MORE
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Independent! And, To become more Discipline!
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That I HAVE to DO THEM! MUST!!!

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Third, improve on my eating habits.
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NO more Soft Drinks! NO more Titbits!
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MORE working out! MORE streaching!
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(Aiming to do splits by the end of the year.
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Hopefully all 3 of them) =D

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Lastly, my Fashion Sense. HAHA!
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Meaning to say, my dressing style, hair style, ...
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accessories, etc. HAVE TO! Lol.


I shall Update you guys on my progress! =D




Wednesday, June 10, 2009, 10:54 PM
Still can't get it out. =(

It's been about 6 days since I last quit Cheerleading. I still think about it. It's just not getting out at all. This sucks. I feel that it's really bringing down my mood.


You have no idea how much I've thought about being a cheerleader. Lol. Silly huh? :) It started ever since I watched my first cheerleading show/movie. And that was it. Lol.


When I started cheerleading in my school. I think it was about the 2nd, 3rd, or 4th training when I strated to think about me making the team and my friends & family ( especially my parents), watching me perform. And seeing how much fun I'm having, and where all the hard work has gone to. And how proud they'll be. Plus, the outfit of course, and my totally flat tummy ^.^ . Haha.

When the seniors told us about the bonding camp. I was TOTALLY, Extreamly Xiced up about it. I imagined about how it'll be and all the other stuff. How much fun we were going to have. =)

P.S. Still xiced that you guys had fun. ^.^


During my free time, I would usually research up on cheerleading, history, diet, and how they train ( toe touch) and warm-ups. Oh, and I also researched on my position, which is base. Iwas totally happy when i heard that. Haha. Safe, safe ground. Lol. =D

Here are the better links if you guys were curious. Haha.
Links:
http://cheerleading.about.com/od/healthandfitness/
Cheerleading_Health_and_Fitness.htm

http://www.ehow.com/how_2386391_become-stronger-cheerleader-base.html

http://www.ehow.com/how_2055968_train-cheerleading.html

http://cheerleading.about.com/cs/jumps/qt/toetouch.htm


So, moving on. There was only on thing standing between me and my goal. RUNNING!

For me, Running it the most difficult P.T. for me. EVER! Why? Cause when I run, it shortens my breath and I kind of start to, so called, freak out. So, I will slow down, take really small steps, and my throat gets Super dry. So, yea.

I made a really....REALLY...Irritatingly...STUPID! desision to open my mouth and asked my parents if I should quit Cheerleading. And I have regretted it since. I'm Really SORRY! =,(

I know that there's no turning back once you quit something (CCA or IG), well to me that is. As I felt that I've let everybody down once I had quit.
Sigh....I have NEVER in my LIFE felt so sad for quiting an IG or CCA. NEVER!

On that day when I sent the sms to coach, I nearly wanted to cry. BUT I held it in as my parents and sister were in-front and beside me. I acted like, I felt nothing when I sent that sms.

That very night, I almost cried my eyes out. I felt as if something has died in me. Thought went through my mind. Like, wed. was the last day that I could every step on that mat again, and to carry people on my shoulders for sits and stands. Last blue-black that I'll ever get from Rexaz cheerleading. And the last day that I will ever train with my seniors and friends. It really sucked to feel that way. (and yes I know it sounds like I'm over reacting, but that was how I really felt at that time).

I thought that I could forget about it fast but, what did you know. I still haven't. What am I to do now? It is really affecting my mood, the way I see things right now. I find it difficult to find joy in the things I do right now.

I wear a mask in front of my family and friends. I do try to open up but, close back again.

The feeling right now, is that nothing can replace the joy and fulfilment I had when I was in cheerleading.




Coach was right, once a cheerleader at heart, there's no going back. Lol. And yes although I had only been in cheerleading for 1 month and 1 week. I feel very much attached to it. Or maybe it's just the sadness talking.




Is there anyone who can help me get over it? Anybody? I really feel that I do need help, to get over this. I don't think I can do this alone. =(



So, that's my story. The End.
Goodnight everybody. -_,- zzzZZZ
P.S. Please excuse my spelling mistakes. ^.^"